Here's a meaningful post filled with advices: 50 pieces of sound advice for all 20-somethings


▶ To a hopefully meaningful 2014 ahead, for me and for everyone around me.

Labels: thoughts, wishes

So I just turned down a call that I long thought would never come. Yes, I did. BECAUSE EVERYTHING CLASHES, WHAT CAN I DO??? I CAN'T DO IT DURING THE PERIOD THEY NEED ME TO. I've been yearning for this so much and now I've to reject it. MY KOKORO. IS CREYING RIVERS OF TEARS.


On a good note, I've got their number lawl. Should I still be interested, I'll call them up after I graduate. Yup that I'll do.

Signing off with a BIG sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Labels: thoughts

It's been a long time since I updated.

Finally! After months and months of dealing with FYP, we finally presented our ideas and prototypes for the last time. And I could say I'm actually very proud of what my team had to share. To be honest, I thought we did really well, especially all the last minute add-ons and those late nights in school. I'm glad we didn't give up, despite all the procrastinations. I believe we did our best. Still quite disappointed with my pitching skills though.


 Also, I'm glad to say I'm accepted into my internship company. I was shocked and appalled by the interview session. It left me really confused as to what I really wanted. I thought to myself, this was not even what I opt for in the first place, yet I couldn't be rejecting because it wasn't something I enjoyed doing in the first place. I chose something else, but wasn't able to get it. So am I supposed to continue moving forward as it is, or am I supposed to make a U-turn where there's no way I could get what I wanted. So I decided to go with destiny, accept the results as it is, no matter what the answer will be. And eventually, they gave me the chance that I'd never gotten from the other side. Thankful, I am, because I had not convinced them well enough that I would perform well. I am not convinced myself that I would do well either. Although the position wasn't what I expected and wished for, but you know how they always say the unexpected could be a blessing in disguise. So I'm going for it, will put in my best effort, and I hope I find my passion and future there. I'm determined to do well, learn as much as I can, be as hardworking as I can. I want my internship to be fruitful to me and advantageous to the company too. Along the way, I might probably have the thoughts on giving up, but I hope I remember that very day, how determined I became, after the interview.

I'm just so disappointed with some people, just to realise that I've been actually denied on something that was supposedly available and acceptable. Was it a lie? Was it fated to be that way? It took me a long way to find out what I really enjoyed and was passionate about, and I'm not ready to let it end here. I'll not be giving up on my current passion as well, will be hopefully trying out again next year if the passion ensues. Maybe at the end of this journey, I'll find that something that I truly am passionate about. Maybe I'll find me.

Labels: internship, motivation, school, thoughts, work

Today, a customer asked me if I could make his wife smile, "can you make her happy?" And I just smiled and laughed awkwardly, being at lost.

Now thinking about it, I can't even make myself happy, how do I cheer someone else up?

Labels: rants, thoughts

I really don't know what to feel right now, don't know what to say. Totally speechless.

Don't read any further if you can't stand crude posts filled with profanities. It's just one of my those days rant.

Now that I think about it, ever since 2013, my Sundays have been really fucked up. I don't know if it's work, or just... fucked up Sundays. Don't know to cry or to get angry.

Well, so last Sunday, as usual I had work, and my pants decided to ripped at the crotch area. Yay. And then it got bigger and bigger because I had to walk around and squat to make the drinks so hooray. Couldn't wait to get home and change out of them. I was kind of upset too because I liked those jeggings, plus I had them altered myself at the calves and ankles. And it had to fucking split. Well, but I had mumsie to fix them up so I guess it's alright now, if nobody stares at my crotch that is it.

Then today, fucking Sunday as well. Everything was fine, except for my occasional sneezes which I was predicting it to be a random cold. Then it was lunch break, as usual I went to buy Korean food. Then I was dumb, retarded, fucked up enough to insist that I throw my receipt into the takeaway, as I was doing it, I lose complete grip of my phone which I was holding with my wallet. Before I could react and grab it tight enough, it slipped off my hand and onto the floor with the screen flat down. PIAK IT WENT. Then everyone just turned around in their surprised expressions, as if they were empathising me. Well, they were I guess, I couldn't bear to look up at anyone. I just stared at my skull cover which seemed to be mocking at me, picked my phone up and I was thinking in my mind repeatedly, "This is it, I'm finished. Fucked up. No, baby please don't fail me. This ain't happening. It's all a nightmare, please wake me up. Can time please rewind? Baby please be fine!" Then as if in the movies, the screen did a colourful disco show before it blacked out. So I tried to turn it off, then I saw a really dimmed screen fluttering at me but the touch sensor wasn't working anymore. Fuck I felt like crying. But I didn't duh. I never liked showing the weak side of me in public lol.

Rushed back to the shop, put my food down, went down to the service center straightaway, trying all means to get it repaired. So by the time I got the number and was waiting for my turn, I'd already wasted half of my break time. So the assistant who served me informed me that well, it's impact damage so it's not included in the warranty and there will be charges based on what they have to change. Oh, I hadn't mentioned that there was a slight crack on the inside of my screen at the side... So it added to the shattering of my heart. Then he told me it would probably be about $100 for the repair. Not bad, better than I expected, I'd have to eat air, no more shopping, no more wasting of money.

Then I guessed there was kind of a miracle. They said they could try and get it fixed, in one hour's time even. I was thanking all kinds of god lol, as well as the kind staff who tried to help. Maybe I looked really sad, I don't know. But thank you.

But then, I went late for the collection, didn't know they close at 6pm on Sundays. So everyone knocked off, there were customers yelling and all. I felt really lost because I thought I could get my phone back today. So I kind of pleaded this staff who was standing at the side, and he finally gave in and help me checked. Thank god, there was my phone, looking fine.

But now, I'm still shit scared, that anything else will happen to my baby... And the screen looks off, in terms of resolution and all it looks much shittier than my phone. But well, beggars can't choose. And I'm forever grateful to the staff there lol, the one who attended to me as well as the friend who kindly helped me. When I said my thanks for the last time, I really meant it. There must be a guardian angel somewhere, over the rainbows. Lol.

But well, lol there's so many buts, but I still feel really upset, that I caused my baby to turn out like that, when it's only two months old and so fragile. Sigh, I really hope nothing will happen to it anymore. Need to be thrifty in case. And no more fucked up Sundays please for god's sake.

And yep, I'm a poor loser who's so worried about her phone when the riches could just get a new one and find it easy peasy lemon squeezily peanuts to them. Wish I was rich.

Labels: rants, thoughts, wishes, work

Love the song, love the outfit

Am so digging Yesung's new hair and the new blonde Heechul!
It's been awhile since I posted any videos.
Since 501's ordeal and FTI's Japan Promo.
I hope everything turns out fine

I just squeezed a load of blackheads out of my nose!!
It's been like a week of so?
Thanks to Prelims, it was like a hectic week of last minute revising.
Damn, I felt like I changed so much over the past week.
Studied like I've never studied before!
Not even for PSLE, for god's sake.
Enough of ranting about academics.

I've started the 30 days letter challenge on Tumblr!
I hope I don't give up after a few days hahahaha, perhaps I might try the FTI's one ltr on.

I've sort of decided on my Pre-University route.
Not considering DPA, cause I fear of port-folio prep and interviews.
Moreover, there's the 3months jumpstart!
Anyway...

I would most probably place Mass Comm as first. (Or PR)
But, can anyone tell me NP or SP for mass comm?
Business (I haven't decided the specific courses yet) as second.
Perhaps consider accountancy, marketing or international?
Then I'll go for Visual Comm, cause the thought of number of drawings needed to be handed in just turns me off.
Then probably I would place some JCs, if my score allows.
Tdum, hope I'll make the right choice and enjoy my life.

On the other hand, the thought of going to a new school irks me too.
As I was telling Gwen on the day of DPA talk, imagine being all alone on the first day of school!
Walking to class with all the strangers just kinda scares me.
But that's how one gets independent all over, right?
Dayum.

And we probably shouldn't care too much about haters.
They're out there to make us stronger anyway.
I probably have a anonymous bunch somewhere.
So, haters to the left.

That's all.
I just thought I should have some proper update since I've been neglecting my blog for a long time. ^v^
I feel weird revealing so much of my thoughts after so long...
-_-;

Labels: MBC music core, Super Junior, thoughts